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Hey guys. Lifes changed in one or two ways. Me and Chaney started dating on February 28th, we've broken up 11 times. She's cheated on me countless times. The most recent time I broke up with her for good. I walked home in the rain and stuff. I had no plans of return. For 3 days I was free at school and that was the happiest I had been in a long time. I had all my friends back there for me; Angel and me were talking, had some chemistry; for the first time in awhile, i had nothing to do, free time. But Chaney was threatening to either kill herself or move to Texas with her aunts. So she kinda guilted me into going back out with her. Now I'm glad I did, but at the time it was awful. I was terribly persocuted when I got back to school. I lost Destiny and Angel as friends. Chaney went back to taking my time. We fight almost daily still. More than once have I thought of breaking up with her again. I honestly didn't want to come into the summer with a relationship. I just wanted to be with my friends 24/7 but once again she's consumed my life. I just wish she had friends for her to hang out with. Our relationship would be so much better if we didnt spend every minute together, it gets stale. I love her though. It's just whenever I want to spend time with someone other than her, she tries to guilt me and gets angry at me. She's trying to make me into her, to where I have no one else BUT her. And it's almost working. I pretty much only have Al left. Luckily he doesn't need much attention. She's just smothering me. Always has.  She's amazing, makes me laugh and everything. Just she uses me to vent on. She gets annoyed with me bc I'm all thats there. I need her, but I also need friends. It's impossible. blah, I'm just repeating myself at this point.

Anyways, Little Alex came back yesterday! It was amazing! He'll be back for 3 weeks but right now he's at the lake with X when we were supposed to go to the Y with Kollin, Corey, Seth M, and maybe Raynor.

Corey's birthday is on Friday which is cool but I hope Al's conjoined party with Morgan isn't on the same day =_=;;

I went camping and to Six Flags with Chaney this other day and after hours of freaking out and fighting I finally rode the Riddler Ride then Batman and Superman twice after I got stuck in it. It was amazing. I might have just gotten over the majority of my fear ^^

Till next time,

Lucy